i'm so happy i could cry

it's raining, and it finally feels like fall.



dependent upon whatever my current life situation may be, rain always brings out the emotion in me. always calm, subdued emotion. variant on the seasons i suppose.

thankfully, today the rain brought clarity of mind. in my own particularly eccentric way.

these past six months have been incredibly significant
& i have found truth in some pretty god-awful, generic cliches.

life really does goes on, and you can't appreciate the good without the bad. every sorrow strengthens our meager emotional muscles and we are always capable of bearing slightly heavier loads afterwards, with whatever newfound wisdom was gained from what seemed to be pain so intense you wouldn't survive. but you do. because we are human and suffering is natural. it is only through this suffering that the good can be truly appreciated.

on the way to work on sunday, i saw a homeless woman standing in the rain with a sign that said "just need a little help". i don't know if it was the rain or my inherited overtly sensitive nature, but i started to cry.

"Who has time for any thing but their own pleasures and sorrows,
for the few good people they've managed to gather around them against the uncertainty..."

it's important to recognize the lack of perspective we have in our lives.
it's imperative that we start making the time.
baby steps, at least.